I was struggling with not feeling ready for my trip, so I decided to look in the bible to see if I could find some answers there. I happened to have my bible from Abba's bible class on hand, and I realized that I had something highlighted on every page in Romans from something that my dad or Abba has talked about, so I decided to start there. I was started reading in Romans 8:31-36 (if you want to know what it says, you can read it for yourself.) It was talking about God's love for us, and how He gave His Son for us, and how He will give us all things. As I read it, I realized that even though I don't feel ready, and there probably isn't a way for me to be ready, it doesn't matter. I just have to do my best, and God will take care of everything else. I don't think I have anything to give any of the youth down there. In fact I think I'll learn a lot more from them then they could ever learn from me. And the truth is I don't have anything to give those people. The only thing I can do is follow God and let Him give them something through me. If I went down there knowing exactly what I wanted to do, with my agenda planned out, where would God fit in?



I think one of my greatest inspirations is Bruce Olson, probably more commonly known as Brushko. He went to South America with nothing but a burning desire to reach the unreached and trust that God would take care of him. And God did. I get to go with a great man to look at and follow, who will help me if I mess up, and a God who can do anything. What else do I need?



Anyway, that all sounds a lot more sure than I feel, but I have always been a fan of not letting your feelings dictate how you act. So I'm putting some faith in God that He will do what He said and take care of me.